Have you ever had that dream?

You know what I mean.

"Have you ever dreamed that were standing on top of a pyramid wearing sort of sun-god robes surrounded by thousands of naked women throwing little pickles at you?"
"No"
"Why am I the only person who has that dream?"
- Real Genius

I have very vivid, colorful, and strangely bizarre dreams. I always have. So I am used to it. In one of my most vivid dreams as a kid I was in the middle of a war. The bad guys were Nazi toy soldiers. They had these giant lunch boxes that moved like tanks and would open up to let out killer Hi-C fruit drink boxes and Christmas trees with Uzi's. We had robots that would transform into pizzas and neener neener bombs. Seriously, thats what they would say when we dropped them on an enemy "Neener Neener Neener!" I know - but I was 14, everything was weird. :)

This morning Josh woke up and said "Mom, I had a really weird dream." I just laughed.I said I know son, I have them a lot. What was your strange dream about?

He tells me he dreamed he was the kings heir but the bad guys were trying to kill him and threw him in the dungeon of a castle. The castle my parents house, and the dungeon was the basement. Which is ironic because that's what we always called it. Anyway - he said the only way to be free was to try to make it to the throne room to talk to the king. The throne was the family room and the king was my dad who was playing Apples to Apples with the knights. Well the only way out of the dungeon was a tunnel through my brother Alex's room. Somehow the tunnel was about 50 miles long. He said he kept thinking to himself "this is stupid - his wall is only like 2 inches!" I laughed and said honey, dreams almost never make sense. He said he woke up before he got there, but that he thought it was weird that all the bad guys and soldiers guarding him were the puppets from Labyrinth. Oh well maybe we wont watch that before bed. :)

Holiday Catch up!

It's been busy!
It has been different with my husband gone. I knew it would be but it's been interesting to see HOW it's been different. I am used to him going out of town for a week or two at work, but this was different. It took a week or two to really miss him because of that - but man, miss him I did. Mostly his voice. I missed talking to him. The mail can be slow so sometimes when I ask him a question it is 8 or 9 days later before I get an answer. Sometimes I will call my voicemail on the home phone just to listen to him talk. Is that pathetic? I do not miss the constant text messages, just his voice. :) I would lay in bed sometimes staring at his side of the bed thinking of how much I love him. That whole "absence makes the heart grow fonder" thing? It's true. Mostly because I can sit and dwell on all the things I love without him there to irritate me and ruin it. :) But I do love him, more than I ever thought I could. And I miss him terribly. More than I thought I could. And I can't tell him that. I can't tell him that I miss him so much it hurts. I can't tell him that in the shower sometimes I cry for no reason. All I can say is that I love him and everything is fine. Even if it wasn't fine I say it is. He can't worry about us right now, he has to focus on what he is doing.

And man oh man, the stuff he is doing. He came home for Christmas on December 18th. YAY!! I was giddy as a schoolgirl to go see him! I just hugged him and hugged him. And brought him a pepsi and king size snickers bar. :) He looked so good in his uniform! Well he just looked good! We picked up the kids from school, went to dinner, and then went to go see Avatar. (which by the way was awesome! The story is ok, the scenery is beautiful.) It's what Josh wanted to do since it was his birthday. The next day was his party at the nickelcade. It was a fun cheap party. And best of all - I didn't have to clean up! Then there was a major fight with my worthless ex-husband that I wont go into. Let me just emphasize the worthless part. Ok - moving on! We pretty much did a lot of nothing, and it was really nice. We visited family, went to dinner, snuggled on the couch. It was great. My ex had the kids from the party until Christmas Day, so we went to the Christmas Party at my moms without them. It was still fun to see all my family. We traded cookies! Except for Gennee and Adrian. Adrian made this to die for chocolate caramel pretzel thing.MMMMMMM! He is now ordered to make me more for my birthday every year. :)We also went and picked the kids presents up. They were awesome! We found some people cleaning out their basements and found a full size pool table, air hockey table, and foosball table for about 100 bucks. How awesome is that?

So Christmas morning I went and picked up the kids at noon, and had a family day! First my mom's then his. It was 11 by the time we got home so the 26th was Christmas part 2! I wanted a Christmas morning at my house so thats what we did. It was great! And we went to the Jackson's for dinner, Nate and Kimber and her sister and her sister's boyfriend came over after dinner and played rockband. Man you haven't seen anything until you have watched Kimber play rockband! She is totally invited to all future rockband events!

Then it was just more nothing. Ahhhhh. I love that. Then came New Years. I took Aaron to Joe and Meshayla's to hang out with his girlfriend Amber, and I took the kids to my sisters where we played games, and rockband, and watched most of Wolverine. Still need to see the end though. Relaxed New Years Day and took him back to the airport at 8am Jan 2nd. *sigh* It was different to say goodbye to him this time. I didn't get enough time. It was like lethargy set in. I wasn't quite sure what to do with myself all day. And now - I miss his voice again. I know he graduates in 2 months and then I can go see him. It's not any longer than he has already been gone. If he gets deployed soon (which is most likely) then he will be gone a lot longer than 2 months and I really just need to suck it up. Its part of being an army wife. I know that.And I am ok - I really am - it's just ....I don't know. It's all good. I just wish for that good night phone call you know? Even a 30 second one. Just a hey babe - everything is fine, I love you kiss the kids, bye. Even just that. But if wishes were fishes. Anyway, not that anyone really wanted my holiday play by play - there you go anyway. :)

Love you all!

In the Army now!

My husband enlisted in the Army in June. He did a bunch of training and stuff and left for boot camp October 27th. Its a change. I was used to him working out of town for a week or two here and there, but this is different. He always called me. Every day. A couple times. And he would send me texts. All day. Now I can get letters. And every so often a five minute phone call. I miss him. I miss him more than I thought. Not that I really knew how much I thought I would. We have never been apart before like this, so......it's different.

It's strange to have every one look at me like I'm a time bomb waiting to go off. Like any minute now I'm going to start screaming and have a break down. I'm not - so relax. :) It's hard yeah but still. I'm ok. He is ok. It was so nice to go to his going away party and have so many people come. To have complete strangers come up to him and thank him for serving. He has received so much negativity about it from his family so that was nice. It's strange to have someone tell me I am brave for letting him do it. No I'm not. He is the brave one. And I'm not sure I had anything to do with letting him. When he told me it was what he wanted to do you could see in his eyes that he meant it. That he found his purpose, this is what he needed to do for him. How could I possibly say no you can't? But then I have never had an issue with the military so.... I didn't have that big of an objection in the first place. After all, he wanted (and still wants to do after the military) to go into law enforcement. Bomb squad and swat team kind of thing, so really how is this any more dangerous? I worry of course. I really don't want him to go to Iraq or Afganistan, but realize he very likely will. And we will deal with that when we need to.

For right now though..I just miss him. He is my friend. Sure we drive each other crazy and have each threatened to smother the other while we sleep, but really now, what married couple hasn't? :) I love my husband, I giggle like a schoolgirl and do a little happy dance with every letter I get. I have had three phone calls and those were awesome. His last one was Tuesday since Wednesday was Veteran's Day. He says he is doing well. They made him a squad leader and he says all the younger guys look to him. Which he says freaks him out a little. He said he doesn't know what he is doing any more than them just because he is so much older! Ha Ha Ha. He says his Drill Sgt. is the one all the other Drill Sgt.'s are afriad of. I laughed. Well at least he will know he REALLY earned it! He said some of it is what he expected, some of it is worse. But hey, it's the army. He misses everyone and said it sucks, he is getting smoked by some of these kids but over all he thinks he is doing just fine. :) I am super super glad he gets to come home for Christmas though! Josh is excited because he comes home on Josh's birthday!

Anyway - I think I meant this to be an update post but kind of just ended up wandering all over everywhere. :)

Rocket Cars and Puppies!

My Chihuahua's had puppies yesterday. They are so super cute! They are tiny but so is the mom. Josh is so excited! He of course asked if we could keep them. I said no, mean mom that I am. We have 2 - that's plenty. I don't know if they will be so cute when they are a little bigger and NOT housebroken. We'll see. But for now - super cute tiny little tribble dogs.

Aaron took Ansley to the Night Of Fire at RMR a couple weekends ago. They stayed out all day, and had a blast. He took Curtis along to help out but said Ansley was a trooper and never wanted to go home. When those cars raced by he just perked right up! Then when it got dark they raced the rocket cars. They fire up in the back like a shuttle before they zip down the track then the parachutes come out slow them down. Gennee was telling me that the next day after his bath Ansley was trying to hook a balloon to his backside. When she asked what he was doing he said "Mom I need a parachute! Too funny. Man I love that kid. I want to say it's Aaron's fault he is a redneck - but I think he was born that way. :)

Murder!

We had a murder party at my mother's house. It was great fun! We were all characters invited to dine with our host Arthur E Faxe. He is an archaeologist. (art e faxe get it? artifacts?) All of the names were puns. It was great. It was in the 1890's at a dig site. After we got to dinner we were informed that our host had been murdered and the police were on there way so we should figure out who the killer was before they got there. We all had parts and facts to be revealed throughout the dinner. It was great! My parents went all out decorating the place. They had played this one before so they were the cooks and the waiter. My dad is such a ham. You gotta love him! Overall I think it was a rousing success!!

P.S. It was Katie all along! Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha